1. I had a lot of stuff to get caught up on at work after the weekend, but I got caught up.
2. I kept seeing ads for one of these blanket hoodie things and although it's not the season for it, it did look very comfy, so I ended up ordering it and it arrived today. It is indeed very comfy and I can see myself getting a lot of use out of this during colder weather.
posted by torachan at 08:45pm on 21/07/2025 under disney
Today was a first. Carla drove down to Disneyland from home, and I met her there after work. (Usually if we go after work, either she rides with me and then takes the car to do whatever while I'm doing work stuff, or I go back home after work and pick her up then head back down.)
One of my friends on FB was talking about the experience of having a daughter who's a bookworm (at her birthday, as soon as she opened a present and saw she got books, she wanted to go read). It reminded me of this story from my past:
One of my mom's favorite stories to tell about me was that the Christmas I turned 7, one of my gifts was a stack of books (Alice in Wonderland, The Wizard of Oz, Tom Sawyer, Treasure Island, and 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea). As soon as I got those, Christmas was over as far as I was concerned - I opened Alice in Wonderland (because it was at the top of the stack) and started reading. In the back yard was a new swingset that my dad, my uncle, and my grandfather had spent all day Christmas Eve putting together. They had to drag me away from my books to go see it. I played for about 10 minutes or so, then went back in and went back to reading.
Major props to the Somerville Theatre for accommodating the accessibility needs of my still-healing mother so that she could get out of the house tonight for the first time in a month and a half and watch the original 3:10 to Yuma (1957), which she first showed me in high school on rental VHS. It was my introduction to Glenn Ford and my second experience of Van Heflin and remains on the long list of movies I love and have never written about, but I had never seen it on a big screen, either, and its silver drought winter-for-summer looks like nothing else in the Western catalogue. It's full of tensions and strange tenderness, high-angle shots like the sky soaring back, sweat beading like the rain that doesn't fall. It's a film about failures and fisher kings: how could I not love it? My mother had a wonderful time. I am so glad she had a wonderful time. It was her first movie in theaters in five years.
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I interrupt my travel series to share some photos from the last months of birds. This barn swallow was caught almost by accident as it headed off, coming towards us in the parking lot.
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In terms of sustainable effort:
MUD: medium-high bar if using existing codebase.
Ink serialized web-based text adventure: medium-low bar. Probably chapter by chapter releases.
ETA #1: Wait a second! You can compile Inform 7 to release for playing on the web! Either this didn't exist ca. 2007 or I suck at reading documentation. That's my choice, then. I enjoy writing parser IF (interactive fiction / text adventures) more than choice-based formats. Yay!
VN: high bar.
comic: I'm doing this for myself so it really doesn't matter what anyone thinks, but maybe people prefer this.
2D animated short (we're talking 5-10 minutes): SLOWEST. VERY SLOW. 2D hand-drawn animation is just slow. But I've proposed this for my final major project starting in 2028, so I'm doing this no matter what anyone else thinks.
[1] serialized reboot/AU novel (prose): This would require negotiating with my publisher, which has an option on further prose works. I control the relevant rights for other formats.
Discussion with Solaris suggested they would be happy to talk about a different Machineries trilogy with a new plot and a new set of characters but the two ideas I have aren't trilogy-length and I don't have a sense that any reader wants this! It's theoretically possible Solaris might let me play with a newsletter (etc) serialization if it's something they wouldn't have an interest in offering for and they are assuming zero risk since I doubt anything I do here would tank sales of the existing books. However, there are negotiation complications here that may make this Not Possible rights-wise so I'm hoping no one wants this and I can stop thinking about it with a clear conscience.
I'm sitting on something like 100,000+ words of disorganized prose bits (not a coherent single narrative, it's a bunch of different POVs) and I want to write about that crashhawk unit and Gödel's incompleteness theorems in hexarchate numerology. I have an outline.
But also. For health and family reasons, I'm not signing a book contract in the near future; any prose-format writing is going to be on spec or similar if at all, and if the answer is that it's just noodling that stays on my hard drive, it is what it is. Meanwhile, I have orchestration homework to do, ta!
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Made chocolate-chip pancakes to celebrate a recent college grad’s first day of work, and thought I’d post a review of the pancake mix I usually use (available in the US).
Birch Benders Gluten Free Pancake and Waffle Mix! It’s a pancake. The main virtue for me is that I just put buttermilk in and pop it on the griddle. Regular milk and water also work, they just make it less fluffy than the acidity of buttermilk does, if you’re invested in that. Apparently they changed the formulation recently but I didn’t notice anything.
I do find that the amount of liquid they tell you to add (3/4 cup mix to 1/3 cup liquid) is NOT enough, I tend to do more like three parts mix to two parts buttermilk, or even more. Possibly it’s different with water. I also do not know how it functions as a waffle mix as I do not make waffles.
INGREDIENTS: WHITE RICE FLOUR, BROWN RICE FLOUR, POTATO STARCH, OAT FLOUR, CANE SUGAR, TAPIOCA STARCH, DRIED BUTTERMILK, LEAVENING (CALCIUM PHOSPHATE, BAKING SODA), CONTAINS 2% OR LESS OF: SALT, GUAR GUM, NATURAL FLAVOR.
I'm listening to Meditations for Mortals: Four weeks to enhance your limitations and make time for what counts, written and narrated by Oliver Burkeman, which espouses imperfectionism, a philosophy of life where you acknowledge that you'll never manage to do everything, and you stop beating yourself up about that fact. (I'm only seven short chapters in, hence this massive oversimplification.) I was thinking about how this relates to my WIP folder.
I'm serially monofannish. When I move fandoms, my old WIPs generally acquire Permanently Discontinued status. Sometimes I post them to AO3 marked incomplete, and other times they lurk in a subfolder of my WIP folder, where I occasionally mourn their lost potential. But mostly they're easy to ignore.
Over the months and years in a new fandom, I naturally accumulate more WIPs. So how do I choose what to work on next? How do I blow the dust off and get the engine turning over?
I am combining my usual Music Monday with answers to Sunshine Challenge #5
Journaling prompt: Be a carnival barker for your favorite movie, book, or show (or any other of your choice - game, comic, anything else)! Write a post that showcases the best your chosen title has to offer and entices passersby to check it out. Creative prompt: Write a fic or original story about a character reluctantly doing something they are hesitant about.
I struggled a bit with this prompt. It's not really my thing to try to convince someone else to like what I like. But I don't mind talking about 4 songs by Korean rapper Agust D (aka SUGA of BTS, real name: Min Yoongi).
So in my mind, Agust D has 4 great songs: Agust D, Moonlight, Daechwita, and People No. 1.
"Agust D" is the best pump song. I listen to it almost every time I exercise. There are military style snare drums, and he samples James Brown's "It’s Man’s Man’s Man’s World." James Brown is a big deal where I'm from (South Carolina). Here on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Y_Eiyg4bfk&list=RD3Y_Eiyg4bfk&start_radio=1
"Moonlight" is my favorite song. It's a me song. It sounds like me. Rolling, strolling, people-watching, and not getting in anyone's business. Not too fast. Not too slow. Not too angry. Nothing to do with sex, romance, or love. [Live in Japan: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1_WpxS3NqI&list=RDz1_WpxS3NqI&start_radio=1] And it has this line, which is universal for poets and songwriters:
Verse1 은 존나 빠르게 썼는데도 I wrote Verse1 fucking fast,
Verse2 는 진짜 안 나오네 쥐어짜도 but can’t make Verse2 no matter how hard I rack my brain
"Daechwita" is his most important song because it introduces the world outside Korea to Korean culture. Daechwita (literally “great blowing and hitting”) is a genre of Korean traditional music consisting of military music played by wind and percussion instruments, generally performed while marching. And the video is epic.
"People No. 1" is his best song. He had something to say, he said it well, and the beat pushes. The closest I've ever come to finding something I might want to tattoo on my skin permanently is this line from the chorus: 뭐 어때 [What about it] On youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sHbl6mt6X80&list=RDsHbl6mt6X80&start_radio=1
This is the chorus:
뭐 어때 What about it
스쳐 지나가면 뭐 어때 If you brush past, what about it
뭐 어때 What about it
상처받으면 뭐 어때 If you get hurt, what about it
때론 또 아플지도 Sometimes you might be in pain again
가끔은 속상해 눈물 흘릴지도 Sometimes you might get upset and shed tears
뭐 어때 What about it
그렇게 살면 뭐 어때 If you live like that, what about it
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For the creative challenge, yesterday I did a double drabble about Watson going to Devon with Sir Henry Baskerville.
Title: Hesitancy Fandom: Sherlock Holmes (ACD) Rating: Gen Length: 200 Summary: Watson reflects on the decision to go to Dartmoor with Sir Henry Baskerville.
Recently on Bluesky, I was shouting as usual about Lessons in Magic and Disaster, my novel that comes out in about a month. (It's about a young trans woman who teaches her depressed mother how to do magic, and it is full of queer joy, weirdness, complicated family stuff, unconditional love, and tenderness.) In response to my promotional warbling, somebody said they wished they could find a way to let their local indie bookstore know right now that they wanted a copy of this book reserved for them. So I had the extreme pleasure and delight of introducing someone to the concept of pre-orders, at which point they were as delighted as I was.
So I figured it wouldn't be a bad idea to write a whole newsletter about why pre-orders are so important, and why authors need them so much.
There are two basic cases for pre-orders: a positive one and a negative one. I prefer to emphasize the first over the second, but they both are extremely true and valid.
The positive case for pre-orders goes like this: they're a gift that you are buying for your future self. You are surprising this upcoming incarnation with a nice treat, one that you may or may not remember having ordered by the time it shows up. You are showing a lot of love to the book you're pre-ordering and the bookstore you are pre-ordering it from. You are letting the bookstore know that this is a book that you — and possibly others — are already excited about.
Pre-ordering is inherently a hopeful, forward-looking action that declares that we will survive, and there will be wonderful books for us to read when we do. With pre-orders, you get a lot of bang for your buck, because all those months of pre-sales add up as part of the first week's purchases of a book — meaning that a book with a lot of pre-orders will show a stronger opening week. This, in turn, signals to everybody that this is a book that is going places.
The more negative case is a bit of a bummer, and I apologize in advance for bringing the mood down.
Basically, it's harder and harder for new books, even ones by established authors, to get much traction in the marketplace. There are so many books out every week, and the tech industry has systematically destroyed all of the ways that we used to find out about new books. We're basically left with Tiktok at this point. Bookstores seem to be ordering more conservatively than before the pandemic, and keeping books on their shelves for less time. Although the occasional book gets a ton of attention years after it was published, in practice most books have a shorter and shorter window in which to get noticed, before they start to disappear.
There is a reason why so many authors on social media seem increasingly freaked out. It's an alarming time for so many of us. In fact, authors are caught at the epicenter of (deep breath) the death of arts journalism, the rise of book bans, "A.I." snake-oil hucksterism, and a number of other shit-tastic trends. Art and culture are being sabotaged as part of a program of dehumanization. I also get a strong sense that we are enjoying a wealth of wonderful queer books right now, including wonderful trans books — because these books were greenlit a few years ago, in a very different moment. And in many cases these queer and trans books are not getting enough love in the marketplace, because of how things have changed in the last few years.
I forget where I saw this lovely bookstore cat a few years ago
Okay, that's the end of the negative case for pre-orders. Phew.
In a moment, I'm going to talk about how a culture of pre-ordering can be part of a larger sense of active participation, or even citizenship, in the book world on the part of everybody who loves books. But first, I should walk you through how pre-ordering works.
(Let's take a moment to thank our lucky stars that I'm not talking about comics, in which case I'd have to tell you about "final order cut off dates," and having to wait until things have been listed in Previews, which would basically drive you to "gazing into non-Euclidean eldritch horror" levels of brainsplat.)
Basically, if you want to pre-order a book, there are a few ways to do it. You can physically go to your local bookstore and ask them to reserve a copy of, to choose a random example, Lessons in Magic and Disaster. The bookseller will enter it into their system as an order or make a note somewhere. Many bookstores also have their own bespoke e-commerce situations, allowing you to place an order through their website — and this will usually include books that are not yet available. In practice, this could be the same as ordering a book that is already out. (During the pandemic lockdown, when I could not physically visit book stores, I did pre-order a number of books through my neighborhood store's website, and they would email me very nicely to double-check that I understood the book wasn't going to be available right away. )
But what if you cannot physically visit your local bookstore right now? And your local bookstore has no e-commerce set-up of its own? What if you don't have a local bookstore? In that case, I would personally encourage people to pre-order from bookshop.org, a wonderful site that gives some of its proceeds to local bookstores, and you can even designate which bookstore you want to support. Of course, there are also Barnes & Noble and Amazon, which have plenty of experience dealing with pre-orders and actively encourage them.
Bookshop.org also handles ebooks now, and there are also Kobo and all the other usual ones like Kindle, iBooks and Nook. For audiobooks, I highly recommend pre-ordering from libro.fm, but of course there are plenty of places to pre-order audiobooks as well.
People sometimes ask me if there's a particular place they should get my books from in order to give me the most financial support. The answer is basically no — I think I get the same amount of royalties regardless of where you order a book from. I personally love independent bookstores and always want to support them, but if it's not feasible for you to do that, or there are other reasons you prefer to support Barnes & Noble or Amazon, I am just grateful for your support of me and my career.
I’m pretty sure this was Green Apple? It’s from a few years ago.
When I blather on about pre-orders, I sometimes forget to mention libraries, which is a terrible lapse on my part. Suffice to say, I love libraries. And if you request my book from the library before it comes out, you are helping more than you can possibly know. One of the reasons why so many books come out in hardcover format is because libraries prefer to shelve hardcovers, and library sales are incredibly important for book publishers. Plus if you request my book from the library, you are making it available not just to yourself, but to countless other patrons who can enjoy it (I hope!) after you have finished reading it. So if you don't have any space on your shelves or can't afford to buy a new book right now, requesting my book from the library is a divine act of grace.
So moving on to how pre-ordering is part of an expanded view of literary citizenship...
When you pre-order a book, you are taking a more active role in supporting that book and that author, and it makes your relationship with both quite a bit more meaningful. It's also making you more of a participant in book culture in general, helping to fill the gap left by the disappearance of arts journalism and book criticism. This is one super good aspect of the rising importance of pre-orders — ideally, pre-ordering becomes part of a larger phenomenon in which people pay more attention to what books are coming soon, and overall trends that are happening in the book world.
One of the best things that's happened to me in the past few years has been getting the massive privilege of writing monthly reviews of science fiction and fantasy books in the Washington Post. I love every aspect of this process, from paying more attention to upcoming releases and tracking the ones that seem interesting, to selecting a painfully small number of those interesting books to consider for review, to getting to be one of the first to shout about an amazing new book that I have to discovered.
It feels so good to have that level of engagement with new and upcoming books. Thanks to this gig, I now have a whole new set of favorite authors, most of whom are people I have never met and had never heard of before I read their books. I find myself keeping an eye out for the next books by total strangers whose works have moved me, like Megan Giddings, Lavanya Lakshminarayan, or Al Hess.
I was just at Readercon, where I was privileged to be surrounded by a swarm of incredibly talented lovely authors, many of whom I've known for years. This was an obvious instance of the power and splendor or community in the SFF book world. But in recent years, I have found that discovering new reads and eagerly anticipating upcoming releases is another way of being in community with other book-lovers, especially when I'm getting the chance to shout about books I love. I genuinely love that you don't need to travel a thousand miles to attend a convention to be in community with SFF book authors and readers — you just have to pay attention and share the love online.
This is how we are trying to get through a terrible time in general — we don't just passively support journalism anymore, we actively donate to indie media startups and hang out in their discords. We support artists on Patreon and donate to their crowdfunds. We are making our own communities and building alternative structures to replace what is being torn down by the shitlords, and it's a messy, messy process. Thank goodness I like things messy!
So pre-ordering doesn't just help an upcoming book to stand out more and ensure that you will receive a wonderful treat, it also helps to make you part of a new model of community and participation.
And here's where I acknowledge that trust is part of the equation — everyone who is pre-ordering Lessons is, in part, showing trust in me. They're trusting that I won't send them a flaming bag of dog poop instead of a moving story, based on my past body of work. They're also, I guess, trusting that the people who blurbed and reviewed my book and said nice things about it aren't just blowing smoke. Taste is obviously subjective, but I am making an implicit promise that if you liked my previous books, you'll like this one. In this sense, pre-orders are easier for established authors to drum up, which is one reason why debuts get more support in various other ways.
So just to finish up... you can pre-order Lessons in Magic and Disaster everywhere, in all the ways I explained above. If you pre-order from Green Apple Books, I'll sign and personalize your copy and do a doodle of your choosing. (Please specify personalization stuff in the "comments" field of your order, so I'm not having to guess whether you want your name on it! I'm gonna be doing a ton of these in one day, and I'm slightly worried that I'll write someone's name in a book when they wanted to give it to a different person.) If you pre-order and submit your receipt or acknowledgment to this form or email it to limadcopies@gmail.com, I'll send you a PDF with deleted materila from All the Birds in the Sky and a 33,000-word chunk of the sequel to that novel, called All the Seeds in the Ground.
I'm so grateful already to everybody who is pre-ordered Lessons in Magic and Disaster, and to all the early readers who have been saying nice things about it online. Any time either of those things happens and I'm aware of it, I feel like I have a posse but also like I am a part of something larger than just myself and my one book.
Bonus Rant: NSCYS was the theory, Lessons is the practice
A while back, I wrote that if my writing advice book Never Say You Can't Survive is the theory, then my novel Lessons in Magic and Disaster is the practice. What did I mean by that? I figured it was probably a good idea to unpack it a tiny bit.
For starters, I was writing first drafts of both books at the same time, during the very worst days of the pandemic. And I was very much thinking about the power of story, and how telling a story is in many ways like casting a spell: for protection, for strength, for family. I also was following my own advice, using Lessons in Magic and Disaster as a way to escape from the terrible things that were happening around me — but also using it to process some stuff that was going on.
Everything I said in Never Say You Can't Survive about harnessing your emotions, including rage and the desire for human connection, went directly into the process of writing Lessons in Magic and Disaster. The section of NSCYS that talks about how powerful it can be to write about people wanting something is basically me drawing a roadmap for Lessons.
It's perhaps a bit meta: Lessons is about a character, Jamie, who is finding comfort and power in the act of creation and in learning about a novel from 1749. She's fiercely defending the life of the mind against everyone who sees it as worthless. And the book is peppered with little observations about how we find and create stories that save us or enlighten us. And then there's the fact that I can't look at this book without thinking of all of the utterly appalling things I was living through, which I partly survived by writing it. I almost think of Never Say You Can't Survive and Lessons in Magic and Disaster as two halves of a single project, despite the long interval between their two publications.
Thanks to everybody who read this far down. As promised here is my Social Security Number and all of my banking information:
“Being a middle-aged white guy and working in this space today feels, to me, like what it must have felt to have been a poet at the end of the 20th century,” Niven tells me, laughing. “It’s a very niche, very recherché area, with a tiny audience. Men just don’t read fiction in anything like the same quantities they used to, and fewer of us, it seems, are writing it.”
You know, women are notably broader in their reading parameters? I'm not convinced by this argument:
He tells me a story about a friend – “with a big public profile” – who published his first novel a couple of years ago. “It was very good, but it was non-genre, and he’s a middle-aged white guy, so I did my best to manage his expectations.” The novel was turned down by every major publisher before eventually being picked up by a tiny independent. The book, once published, came and went, as so many do. “If it had been written by a woman, it would have sold six, seven times as many as it eventually did. But this is where we are today.”
Or maybe it just Wasn't All That?
And apparently at least one of the lairy 'scabrous, satirical, and vigorously male' novelists of the 90s who cannot catch a break these days:
["W]rites crime novels now. The last refuge of the scoundrel is the crime novel. And I get it! There’s a definable audience for crime fiction, but if you’re not writing genre fiction, then it’s difficult out there.”
Because the damselly laydeez never, ever dabble in the waters of crime or genre fiction....
Oh, wait.
I do wonder WHY they want to write SRS LTRY FIKSHUN??? is it all about the Kultural Kred? (Am currently reading Norma Clarke on Goldsmith and Grub Street, and how it was Not Gentlemanly to be a hack who wrote for filthy lucre, and the delicate balancing acts Georgian literary figures had to engage in.) And why are they all about being warty boys when they do so rather than being, oh, Henry James or Scott Fitzgerald or noted for their exquisite prose style? is it also about Macho Cred?
My own literary tastes among the Blokes of the Pen whose works you will tear from my cold dead hands have been discursed of here and they range widely. I can't help imagining several of them waxing satyrik about this lot.
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